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  • Jun. 24th, 2006 at 2:50 AM
gun-stilleto
*raises hand*

So, I just wanted to say that I am still alive (yeah yeah- I know some of you are disappointed to hear it, ha ha)... I know that I haven't been posting here very much lately.

My life has obviously been rather... shaken and stirred lately. NOTHING whatsoever is the same anymore, in fact... on Tuesday, I loaded up my truck and just hit the road all alone... I 'ran away' from home in a manner of speaking... I just needed to get away, to disappear. And I guess I've done a good job of it, because I've covered four states so far and almost no one knows where I am right now. And it kinda feels good for the moment.

Things got pretty nasty here on LJ for me recently after the 'breakup'. People whom I had considered good friends turned on me, I got some pretty foul messages, and all over something that was no one else's business, anyway (and that was not even TRUE, to boot) Yes, I did post about the fact that Mark & I broke up, but I posted it friend's only, and included only the facts about the breaking up itself. I did not (and will NOT) go back and detail every single grievance and issue and argument in the marriage- I do not believe that that part of it is anyone's business but mine & Mark's. Yet there was a whole group of people that nosed into the issues and took sides, created drama from things they 'heard'... I really let that hurt me for awhile, because I know that I am an honest (to a fucking FAULT, even) person, and the things they were saying about me were untrue and extremely insulting...

But I'm over it- this is not high school dammit. I have discovered that there are many more of you guys out there who love and appreciate me exactly as I am, and do not let hearsay, shit-talking, or speculations about my private life stop you from standing by me. I am really grateful to those of you who listened to my side of things, who were mature about the situation, or who just sent me a virtual *hug* and otherwise stayed neutral. I THANK YOU guys for that.

In the meanwhile... because I felt so 'burned' by some of the stuff that went on here, I had decided to stop posting on LJ totally. But recently some good LJ friends told me, 'FUCK THAT, we miss you'... and so, I guess I will continue here. I really appreciate the encouragement. I have cleaned up my friend's list a bit, and added some new friends... and am ready to get back to LJ-posting...

I realize that there is a big lag since the last time I posted, and in case you are wondering what has been going on, I have been posting entries on my 360 blog almost daily... my entire index of entries by subject/date is here (but keep in mind that it's a few days behind, cause I have been on the road... you can see the most recent posts by going to my 360 blog) for those of you who wanna 'catch up' with what has been going on in my life- my road trip, my new home, and some very big changes, among other stuff.

I hope you all have been well. I have missed you guys. Thanks for understanding, and *BIGHUGS* to all...

...and now, a totally random icon:

Ooh looky it's the totally random, ever-changing icon o' fun!!

  • Mood: resilient
  • Music:The Vandals- Fucked Up Girl

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[info]lrdblasko wrote:
Jun. 24th, 2006 12:01 pm (UTC)
You are a beautiful and precious person, interesting in every way that a person can be intersting.

I tell you that, most importantly so that *you* don't lose sight of it.
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[info]_boxinghelena wrote:
Jun. 24th, 2006 12:31 pm (UTC)
I'm so happy to see you posting again!! *does happy dance* I need to check your blog.
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[info]batchix wrote:
Jun. 24th, 2006 02:10 pm (UTC)
I was wondering if you were okay. :{ I am an LJ hermit. *HUG* Specifically I was wondering because I saw this video and thought of you and thought you'd enjoy it:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3lcbkFcK-zY

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Awmet0Q9lI and this one too

both are music videos. XD
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[info]orphanland wrote:
Jun. 24th, 2006 02:55 pm (UTC)
Keep on Postin as You are!
Skrew what others think, if they believe in drama, hype, and bullshit, drop them. You had issues with your marriage, you are working on yourself and a life, good enough for me. Many of us have been there, and unfortunately, some people don't get it and choose sides, it does happen alla time.

Don't let some idiots ruin what you have going on. I enjoy your posts, websites, and adventures. I know having a marriage fall apart is rough, and I really hope the best for you.
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[info]jaydedfaerie wrote:
Jun. 24th, 2006 05:17 pm (UTC)
good to hear from you :)
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[info]gingerdoll wrote:
Jun. 24th, 2006 05:23 pm (UTC)
It's good to see a post from you! I'd begun to worry a bit!
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[info]devalmont wrote:
Jun. 24th, 2006 06:04 pm (UTC)
Hmm, contacting someone for the first time while they are going through 'Interesting Times', as the proverb goes. Optimum opportunity to say something really stupid and put both feet firmly down my oesophagus.

Therefore I'll be in the corner smiling sweetly waiting for a time when my oafish demeanour is less likely to lead to me making a prat of myself.
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[info]devalmont wrote:
Jun. 24th, 2006 06:11 pm (UTC)
Oh, but incidentally my friend's LJ is [Unknown LJ tag]. Most of his 'visits' are cut for friends only but there are couple out to see, but I have suggested that he befriend you so you can look at pictures of his gnarly ECT rooms and stuff.
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[info]devalmont wrote:
Jun. 24th, 2006 06:12 pm (UTC)
Gah. See above for mention of my oafishness. I meant of course to input the word [info]technotom
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[info]insanity_speaks wrote:
Jun. 24th, 2006 08:44 pm (UTC)
I've missed you and I'm glad you are back :)
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[info]anodyne19148 wrote:
Jun. 25th, 2006 12:53 am (UTC)
Shady, I'm glad to see that you posted here again. I checked out your 360 blog this week since you haven't posted to LJ in so long. I thought you might have given LJ up.

I have a lot of respect for you, and I feel bad for you and Mark, both. I am one of those people who wants to remain neutral about the whole break up.

You're in my thoughts.
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[info]countessm wrote:
Jun. 25th, 2006 02:02 am (UTC)
I agree with your nice friends. Just ignore the ass-fuckers. They give you sheit, just take them off your friends list.
It's sometimes good to just get away for a while, have fun on your adventure.
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[info]h_e_a_l wrote:
Jun. 27th, 2006 12:44 am (UTC)
Kindly stay well. Safe. For every person with something negative to say there will be two with the positive. Negativity is just louder and harder to ignore. Blessed always and, at the very least, "wherever you go, there you are."--B.B.
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[info]psycholloyd wrote:
Jun. 27th, 2006 03:54 am (UTC)
Have a safe journey! See you when you get back! (in chat that is):)
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[info]senor_stinky wrote:
Jun. 29th, 2006 09:15 am (UTC)
(virtual hug!)

... and of course there's nothing that can't be fixed with chocolates and BAD BAD puns lol
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[info]fenrir1981 wrote:
Jul. 1st, 2006 07:29 pm (UTC)
Good to see you posting again Shady! We are all rooting for you, so don't forget that!
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(Anonymous) wrote:
Jul. 1st, 2006 11:14 pm (UTC)
i'm glad you decided to stay, i have only recently descovered your site (and been reading as many of your past entries i can cram into my tiny little brain) and i think its great, i haven't figured my way round your site properly yet but i will! so plz stay or you will be the reason i am board at night, and as for all the trouble you've been having, LIFE ONLY THROWS UP WHAT IT THINKS WE CAN HANDLE so think of that and try to be positivewhich is not easy i know xx
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[info]groovy_violet wrote:
Jul. 7th, 2006 03:13 am (UTC)
Glad to see you back. I am sorry anyone harrassed you that fucking sucks.
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[info]violentlypink wrote:
Jul. 7th, 2006 10:46 pm (UTC)
Hi from a LostDestinations fan!
Hi! I'm one of many who has seen the creepy demon face, and wanted to chat with you sometime about that set of pictures. :)

I added you yesterday to my yahoo!.

Feel free to leave me an LJ comment or msg on Yahoo! & hope we can chat soon!

Jess
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[info]jj_maccrimmon wrote:
Jul. 8th, 2006 08:47 am (UTC)
I've been very hestitant to make any comment on this given the falling out we had, but I heard about what happened to you. My sympathies Shady. I hope things work out for you.
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[info]twilightmage wrote:
Aug. 8th, 2006 09:11 pm (UTC)
Keep flying Shady Lady.
It's not much but some days, it's enough.
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(Anonymous) wrote:
Aug. 9th, 2006 10:26 am (UTC)
Don't let the bastards grind you down
Hey, new to the site and I love it!!! Just read your blog above. A if life isn't hard enough. I get the feeling your a tough lady and you'll get through it, it's just that sometimes....

Anyhoo, wee message of support, know it's a bit late, but as I said only just got here, but feel as if I know you all pretty well cos I've been on it constantly since I found it!!!

What doesn't kill us makes us stronger etc etc, I know how you feel, so just wanted to send a wee message of support as a big Thank You for such an amazing site.

Go shadylady!!!

Peaceout,

Karenx
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