After all the recent ho-in', porn-o-matic shenaniganry lately, I thought I should get back to reality (reality... um, what's THAT???) and post a life update...



So, here I present the latest in the life and times of the Shadester.

Yes I am still in California. As I mentioned before, I did get the money to make it home (thanks again, my deardear friend... *sends love*), so no hitchhiking for me (the photo above- haha)... *phew*

I have stayed here a little longer due to a few factors... I had to wait for my new car insurance card in the mail, take care of an oil issue in my truck, and wait for my G Jo to make her plans to get to Phoenix, where I am gonna meet her on the halfway-point during the drive back to Texas. She's gonna be waiting for me at my aunty's house there, and be my co-navigator/cohort on the ride back home...

She is so so so so thrilled and grateful that I am coming home. She has been so worried, and also... she has really been missing me, she says (she was stressin' because she didn't have any $$$ to send me to help me get home- she had some free flight miles on SthWst- but that wouldn't help as I have my truck here and needed to drive home, and thus needed some cash for gas) Anyway... I am doing 'ok'... looking forward to getting home and seeing my beloved pets. I will be heading to Phoenix this weekend, so I can meet up with Gramma.

I'm kinda nervous about the first half of the trip, when I will have to go it alone... usually I am ok on lone-road-trips... but my self confidence has just taken a big blow after the, um, 'incident', and I am not yet back to feeling myself (huhhuh huhhuh I said feeling myself). But I am doing my best to look to the future. I can really start working on my life when I get home. But in the meantime, I wanted you guys to know that I am safe now, and hanging in there, and that I will finally be back in Texas very soon.

And that's about the updatey-est I can get right now, I guess. I'm not doing much at the moment other than biding my time... blogging, reading (The Demonologist by Gerald Brittle), playing with Jack- the big black kitty cat who lives here. Not much else to say update-wise.

So, now, I'll give you a peek into my warped wickle brain with a whole random stream of non-connected thought-blurbs:

I have been having lots of headaches. I have also been eating lots of takeout Chinese food (damn you, MSG!!) Yes, I am in a bubble bath in my current 360 userpic, no I was not alone (the extra arm on the right totally gives it away) The same person who was in there with me, was also the same person I was actually photographing in the Casper/Ghost Ho pic, I Photoshopped her out. She was (well, still is) a gorgeous blonde. I miss her a whole f**king lot. I don't smoke (cigarettes.. heh heh), but I have been smoking a lot a cloves lately for some reason. I miss taking pictures. I have resolved to get out and photograph for fun more often. I need to take more pictures of flowers, and sunsets, and the moon. I have been having dreams about houses. Again. I seem to be having a lot of bizarre dreams lately. I miss my cat, Sabre, really bad. It kills me when I hear him meow over the phone. I love all the good friends I have here on LJ. I feel some real connections with some of you guys. I hate the way the contestants scream out, 'good answer, good answer, good answer!!' on Family Feud, even if the answer is a stupid one. I found out last night that lavendar Heather (the flower) means 'solitude'. I wasn't surprised.

I am really, really scared of my future right now. But I am even more scared of my past.

And... that's about it for now. I am gonna go watch some more the episodes of Lost that I have on my laptop. Cyber-hugs to all of you out there that have taken the time to listen, send love & advice, help me through these things, and just plain make me laugh. Thank you.

...and now, a totally random icon: