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WTF, Life??! *sigh*

  • May. 9th, 2006 at 9:57 AM



Well, I am home... actually got home last night. And, here I was gonna post this 'halloooo!' post about the trip and being back home... but, remember that uncertain future I was talking about before I left...? Well, when I got here it became a billion times more f**cked-up-uncertain.

Anyway, sorry, the regularly scheduled post-Post goofiness will not air here as scheduled.

I cannot even talk about this crap at the moment. I am shocked/upset to the point of numbness, and cannot think. I will post more/respond to the last few day's worth of comments when I can calm the f**ck down. Just wanted to let you all know I am back home back in El Paso (not back 'home'... I have no more home...)

...and now, a totally random icon:

Ooh looky it's the totally random, ever-changing icon o' fun!!

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[info]_boxinghelena wrote:
May. 9th, 2006 04:25 pm (UTC)
I'm glad you arrived home safe!
[info]smokyscott wrote:
May. 9th, 2006 05:32 pm (UTC)
Uh oh, Shady. I know you're in a tough situation, I miss talking to you on Yahoozle.
[info]bound_gagged wrote:
May. 9th, 2006 05:41 pm (UTC)
*cuddles you softly* I know that things are going to be super tough on you for the time being. At times, I am sure that you are going to question everything that you decide/have decided. Remember our conversation and the bit about following your heart? If you listen to it, you wont make any mistakes. That you can count on......

I continue to keep you in my thoughts and wishing you well. I've been where you are, Sweetie and it isnt fun. However, the thing that you need to focus on is the fact that it WILL get better. Just keep yourself safe and surround yourself with friends and family that you trust to insure that, ok? *hugs you tightly again* Hang in there...
[info]sunlitx wrote:
May. 9th, 2006 05:50 pm (UTC)
I am glad you're home intact and I'm sorry things aren't cozy. I know the feeling you get when you think you're returning to your safe, foundation only to find the same ruin you left... only its worse because you have no hope of something better... At least at that moment. Maybe it's just me... Anyhow, I hope you take some time out for yourself and take care.
(Anonymous) wrote:
May. 9th, 2006 06:18 pm (UTC)
If I may and if I might, I am sorry for the situation and hopeful for the future and, as ridiculous as it may be, want to write a little something for you. Stupid and odd but offered with good intent:
Dire spider, web undone
Legs have twined and life
Long spun
Shall web be left to gather dust
On roads past traveled
Or shall the fabric of the undoing
Unravel
Reveal the crystal way
The rain and the dew might collect
And upon looking back
No regret for the past
But the future, a doorway of
Prey
Dire spider arise
And hunt out finer days

Cheesy, cheeky, silly and such, but really meant. If it makes sense. You spend a lot of time making people happy and worrying about them. Please, don't feel it necessary to respond to this or any other posts. Don't worry how you will be perceived, you should know that you are already held in high regard by those with only an inkling of your charm. In any case, don't feel guilty taking time to care for yourself. You certainly deserve it. And you seem to have many devoted friends (from what I can tell) I'm sure they're available to lean on, so please lean. Damn, does this come across as a "Mom" speech? As long as it comes across as it is intended: as a show of support. And yes, this again from a stranger. Wish you the best in all.Please take care Shady.-------- h-e-a-l
[info]batchix wrote:
May. 9th, 2006 07:17 pm (UTC)
*hughug* argh~ I can't say anything since i don't know what's going on... but i'll keep you in my prayers. :{
[info]direwraithe wrote:
May. 9th, 2006 08:55 pm (UTC)
Sorry the uncertainy fairy is dumping on you, I dig that ditch with a big shovel at the moment.

Positive thoughts and vibes to ya... *fingers crossed*

-Gregory
[info]babydollbound wrote:
May. 9th, 2006 10:32 pm (UTC)
Hope everything works out ok for you, sweetie.

::hugs::
[info]leadbox wrote:
May. 9th, 2006 11:36 pm (UTC)
Sorry that the shit truck has been coming your way lately. But I was wandering through a cemetary today and thought of you and your crazy exploring.
[info]ozgenre wrote:
May. 10th, 2006 01:27 am (UTC)
Sorry to hear that there is craziness afoot... if'n you need ears, you KNOW we're all here, right?
[info]groovy_violet wrote:
May. 10th, 2006 01:30 am (UTC)
sheesh what now Lady? sending all the vibes and positivity I can
[info]countessm wrote:
May. 10th, 2006 03:35 am (UTC)
CROTCH SHOT, CROTCH SHOT!! MWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!
(Anonymous) wrote:
May. 11th, 2006 11:13 pm (UTC)
From Dlifes-This will help...
From one cat lover to another...here is the most \m/ video of my new kitten, Bella. Crank the speakers and enjoy!
I hope it puts a smile on your face and a purrrrr in your heart.
Hang in there, Shady!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3vkvDsF4hEo
http://www1.myspace.com/bellathemetalkitten
[info]senor_stinky wrote:
May. 14th, 2006 11:14 pm (UTC)
Wow Shady... don't forget you have friends and always have people to talk to. Keep the faith.