So, I just wanted to say that I am still alive (yeah yeah- I know some
of you are disappointed to hear it, ha ha)... I know that I haven't been posting here very much lately.
My life has obviously been rather... shaken and stirred lately. NOTHING whatsoever is the same anymore, in fact... on Tuesday, I loaded up my truck and just hit the road all alone... I 'ran away' from home in a manner of speaking... I just needed to get away, to disappear. And I guess I've done a good job of it, because I've covered four states so far and almost no one knows where I am right now. And it kinda feels good for the moment.
Things got pretty nasty here on LJ for me recently after the 'breakup'. People whom I had considered good friends turned on me, I got some pretty foul messages, and all over something that was no one else's business, anyway (and that was not even TRUE, to boot) Yes, I did post about the fact that Mark & I broke up, but I posted it friend's only, and included only the facts about the breaking up itself. I did not (and will NOT) go back and detail every single grievance and issue and argument in the marriage- I do not believe that that part of it is anyone's business but mine & Mark's. Yet there was a whole group of people that nosed into the issues and took sides, created drama from things they 'heard'... I really let that hurt me for awhile, because I know that I am an honest (to a fucking FAULT
, even) person, and the things they were saying about me were untrue and extremely insulting...
But I'm over it- this is not high school dammit. I have discovered that there are many more of you guys out there who love and appreciate me exactly
as I am, and do not let hearsay, shit-talking, or speculations about my private life stop you from standing by me. I am really grateful to those of you who listened to my side of things, who were mature about the situation, or who just sent me a virtual *hug* and otherwise stayed neutral. I THANK YOU guys for that.
In the meanwhile... because I felt so 'burned' by some of the stuff that went on here, I had
decided to stop posting on LJ totally. But recently some good LJ friends told me, 'FUCK THAT, we miss you'... and so, I guess I will continue here. I really appreciate the encouragement. I have cleaned up my friend's list a bit, and added some new friends... and am ready to get back to LJ-posting...
I realize that there is a big lag since the last time I posted, and in case you are wondering what has been going on, I have been posting entries on my 360 blog
almost daily... my entire index of entries by subject/date is here
(but keep in mind that it's a few days behind, cause I have been on the road... you can see the most
recent posts by going to my 360 blog) for those of you who wanna 'catch up' with what has been going on in my life- my road trip, my new home, and some very big changes, among other stuff.
I hope you all have been well. I have missed you guys. Thanks for understanding, and *BIGHUGS* to all...
...and now, a totally random icon: